Black Hole EP

by Cotton Brain

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1.
Black Hole 05:47
Streetsign dyslexia New places in my directional lexcon New friends Old town San Francisco turned my whole life Upside down I haven’t seen you around Even though everyone knows everyone round here I knew this town like the back of my hand Now some days I feel like a stranger in my own home land You know what they say The more things change, the more they stay the same The more they stay the same In a city that never changes I’m discovering brand new places In this twilight zone there are no strangers But I’m seeing a lot of new faces Something changed But nothing changes here I have changed I’ve got a brand New personality And brand New fears All of my old stomping grounds Are disappearing house by house They’re building New age mausoleums Places to rot in Where the rent is 4 figures This place is a lost and found What goes around still sticks around Old friends playing in new bands Old lovers holding the same hands In a city that never changes I’m discovering brand new places In this twilight zone there are no strangers But I’m seeing a lot of new faces Something changed But nothing changes here I have changed New point of view New ways to disappear Nostalgia like a drug Remakes of things we used to love Nothing new Nothing real We have seen it all before, already know how to feel Recycled content until you’re dead Names of old classmates rattling around my head I see their faces in every crowd In every bar, in every town Rearrange the letters Rearrange the names Same puzzle pieces Same familiar things No matter how much you rearrange it won’t quite be the same But Will it ever ever change But it has to change We’ve lost our ways To pocket change And cigarettes And stupid street names To politics And shifting blame And consequence And oil fields Lost causes Pills down the drain Of your studio apartment You swore you were done And you tried your hardest In the shadow of fame Just north of the city of dreams This nightmarish place I feel like we’re never gonna leave This black hole town wants to swallow you and me ts gravitational pull Is making it harder to breathe
2.
Veronica 04:43
You slept in my favorite band tee And I haven’t put it through the laundry yet Because it smells like you Veronica I just met ya About a month ago But I have always kinda known you Friend of a friend in high school But I barely talked to you Now you’re in my bed most mornings But never afternoons Oh Veronica You’re my favorite vice But don’t fall in love Please take my advice Because I’m not a good lover In the sense I spend all my time Sittin On the fence You’re addicted to me And I’m addicted to you That’s just a fact And honey when you’re away It’s just a tolerance break Let’s leave it at that I love it when you come to see me You’re the only one I ever really see Anymore Veronica You’re leaving In less than a month It’s a classic tale Of infatuation Keeping distance just enough Because then there’s no money in the table No expectation of a direction No promises to break Oh Veronica You’re my favorite vice But don’t fall in love Please take my advice Because I’m not a good lover In the sense I’ve spent my whole life living On the fence You’re addicted to me And I’m addicted to you That’s just a fact Honey while you’re away It’s just a tolerance break Let’s leave it at that I think I’m starting to miss you I don’t really want to miss you But I really want to kiss you Fuck, I think I need to kiss you Fuck I think I need to kiss you Fuck I think I need to kiss you Oh Veronica You’re my favorite vice But don’t fall in love Please take my advice Because I’m not a good lover In the sense I’ve spent my whole life Sittin On the fence You’re addicted to me And I’m addicted to you That’s just a fact Honey while you’re away It’s just a tolerance break Let’s leave it at that So let’s leave it at that I loved the times we had Lemme know when you’re coming back If you’re ever coming back Are you ever coming back Are you ever coming back Are you ever coming back Are you ever coming back
3.
6th gear On the 101 We may be running But we aren’t on the run 4 wheels And a loaded gun Where we’re going We are gonna need one Revolution In your hometown streets The kids have no control But the adults get no peace Welcome to the end of the world 8x So come on Here’s the address to the end of the world come with me now Be my girl I’ll burn rubber On the freeway To make it to your driveway Put this town in our rearview We can go someplace new Oh god I want something new Building is burning Sirens are wailing Smoke is blocking out the sun The eyes are leaking Tires are screeching Mothers are screaming Out for their sons Welcome to the end of the world 8x 6th gear on the I5 Eyes burning In the sunrise There’s somewhere I want to go But where it is I don’t know But as long As I’m with you And there’s A good view Of the end of the world I think I’ll be alright
4.
Weak 03:05
Well I’ve got a Polaroid from the night you kissed me I will never forget the force of that heartbeat But in that Picture your form is hidden behind my body, so you’re just a vague shape The symbolism isn’t quite lost on me The fleeting phantom only in memory ^-_ There’s no record of your face, and you didn’t even go by / your real name But You’re the devil on my shoulder And I kinda like it And there’s this sinking sort of feeling And I can’t hide it Cuz you still have a piece Of my heart in your teeth It was only a week Why do I feel so weak I’ve got a megaphone in the back of my mind And you’re screaming in it at the worst times And it makes me fucking hate myself But I missed it like You miss a razor blade so stupid but they say that love is blind Self destruction is kinda my Vice And I’m young and fixed up But I wanna be broken like A crashing wave It’s like having a drink After kicking the habit There’s some sick sort of relief And a familiar kind of madness I quit you cold turkey And you didn't deserve me But it was only a week And now I feel so weak It was only a week It’s been 42 weeks And now you’ve come back to me Why do I feel so weak It was only a week Why do I feel so weak It was only a week Why do I feel so weak
5.
So happy birthday to me I guess I’m 23 So much older Than I ever thought that I’d be If I’m being honest I never planned this far ahead The number 23 has never been able to fit inside of my head I just assumed I’d have it figured out by then But I don’t know shit and here I am According to the movies and the TV The best years of my life are behind me And I hope it’s not the case Because They weren’t good to me So happy birthday to me I guess I’m 23 So much older than I ever thought I’d be I know my family looks down on me Not living up to the standards that used to be There’s a new definition of success It’s called being happy What’s the point In having a 5 year plan When the world is gonna end 5 different times by then And I know I’ll never as old as my parents But I never thought I’d be this old I never thought that I’d be 23 Happy birthday to me I guess I’m 23 Happy birthday to me I guess I’m 23 I guess I’m 23

credits

released August 1, 2021

Written/recorded by Alice Fairley
Produced by Carduus (soundcloud.com/carduus)

special thanks to Doug McGuire, whom I could NOT have done this without. Also Ari Anzaldua, Maxine Flanagan, and Brock Wilmert for being the main people I trust for feedback on my music as it goes through the creative process.
and also everyone who I pestered to listen to my demos over the past year or so, and who have supported me in this whole process. as a first official release it's been a lot of work and a lot of pressure, but luckily i have a kickass support system. Without them, none of this would have left the voice memos app on my phone

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Cotton Brain San Diego, California

Cotton Brain was originally started as a DIY solo project in 2021 by Alice Paige

recently the project has grown into a full 4 piece band with new material and shows soon to come

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